A day of loss

Lost a childhood buddy today...to death.
Everything in life is a lesson and it only needs an attentive mind to know what each situations brings with itself. What if detah came to your doorstep tonight and told you tomorrow was going to be your last day, what is it that you would do differently tomorrow?

Today was also a day of looking ahead and planning about what to do with myself. The future as we are made to belive holds promises aplenty. Where am I going to fit inot all that, do I want to fit in or do I want to stand out? Its a rollercoaster of an emotion this one. I am shifting stance like an actor changes wardrobe. I need to decide very very and very soon what to do.

I want to live the longest, thats becasue I dont want anyone I love to mourn my death. Being human is the toughest things that humans invented.