finally managed to break out from the clasp of the lizard king today!!
the trip of my life that is 'the doors' is finally slowing down...the enthralling sound of a certain chris martin have left me dazzled over the past few hours
I can safely say I am happy to be back to being the experimental mind...it all seemed to have wandered off for a long walk somewhere..its a good feeling its all coming back

coming back to where I startted from I never thought these songs made sense ever.. its all the state of mind but something like this comes once in a long while..
my state of mind these days is tending more and more towards the side that I dont want it to tend to... I have begun to overcome many of my fears...that includes worst ones..the really grossest of the ones too..

global warming is a bad sign, its estimated that by 2100 the average temperature rise would be 1.1 degrees...it could also be 6.4 degrees...dont know if it'd be a good thing if I could write this post when that happens... I am pretty sure long life is not half as good as it sounds especially in this age

I want to become invisible...I want to disappear

I wish I was a king.. I wish I wasnt associated with a ten digit number... I want to be a nomad...

I want to get out of this cycle of life...I want to stop talking and thinking like a 20 something...I want to snap out of it.. I want to understand my responsibilities towards my near and dear ones.. I should not be lazy today... if you never try you'lll never know...

new words learnt: veneer, riparian, chivalry (want to practice it too)

I want to learn to deal with competition, dont ever want to get into an argument..I hate to arggue...I think its wasteful.. someone once told me 'have you ever thought that the mess could be in your head'..it hurt me first but over the years I've devised for myself a system of communication....listening comes to me naturally (touchwood) so what happens is that words fall in the ears and travel all the way to the brain for processing...the difference in my programming comes now...the decoding is done in a context that is only of relevance to me...only that selfish and only for me context...the words are carefully weighed in that context (it really doesnt matter at this stage what the intended context of the communicator was, that has long been trashed as scum) and meaning is generated and interpreted...if the same meaning has been generated before...it is trashed and further words are barred entry...well not really I am not the kind to write off anyone or anything off...

I am highly selfish and to an extent demotivated most of the time...the only motivation in my life right now comes from a land yonder......by the salt lake...wish thats forever

I had a strange dream last night. I dont know what to make of it. I dont even know where to start to make something of it. The point of course is not the dream but what it leaves behind. I cant make anythign out of it, to the extent that its a herculean task to begin to write about it.

I realised today that being social is not that bad after all. It helps in keeping the mind fresh.
patience is the key word. insensitivity is the worst thing to have happened to men/ women after evolution.
insensitive behaviour, insensitive/ insensible parking are some of the things that bother me.

I didnt learn a new word today, except the fact that I bunked 3 hours of office today..nothign nice happened today. tomorrow is going to be a long day. a certain person I have come to despise a lot in my little time at the new job is going to annoy me a lot tomorrow... definitely need to calm the nerves before that.

wish I had learnt a couple of new words today.

close.

The first one

After numerous failed attempts and promises to finally start blogging, the day has finally come.
It is way past bed time and I am still figuring out formatting options for this new soon to turn obsession.

I may not have an opinion on everything (thats also becasue I think it is not necessary to have an opinion on everything) but I despise people who do have an opinion on everything. Especially when they come in forms that I personally hate the most. I am a hater. I hate most things that exist (food is an exception, but then it never really exists :P).

I also dislike the kind that are never on time for appointments (getting late for wokr is however excused). I have never understood these kind. Which is the reason why I am not able to hate them as much I hate all the others. We are all slaves of our fears. Our actions (a vast majority of them) are thus really counter-actions. Something that has to be done to overcome fear...

Today was a well begun fulfilling day. Lunch treat by dear friend was good, we could have done without the excess baggage that came in a form I hate most. Class was a a dampener, I feel I can do better, I just need to be smarter! it's a good thing cricket and TT happened in quick succession after class, atleast the spirits were soaring.

New words learnt today: ciloholic, cogitate, gumpish

Close